A letter to our baby

I wrote our baby a letter yesterday. I kept thinking about him/her & thought it'd be fun to put some of my feelings on paper (well not really, I typed it but paper sounds better:)) Here it is!

Dear Baby,

Mommy & Daddy have been thinking about you a lot lately. We’ve been wondering where you are, what you’ll look like, and when we’ll get to meet you. We’re hoping it’s not too far away! You are going to have two mommies little one! Lucky you, not every baby gets two moms...just very special ones. Your birth mommy has a very difficult decision to make, one that she will think about for the rest of her life. She will be making the decision to give you to us, your mommy & daddy for life. Your birth mom loves you & that is why she will make this hard decision. She wanted you to have a life she couldn’t offer you, I will tell you more about this when you’re a little older. For now daddy & I will have to be patient & wait for God to bring you home to us. We are very excited to meet you sweetie. Mommy can’t seem to think about anything else lately. You will have siblings too baby, hopefully a few of them! God has called us to adopt you, YOU are our PLAN A. Please never forget that! You might have some questions for us when you get older & we want you to ask us whatever you want to. We love you & prayed for you long before you came into our lives...that’s what a lot mommy’s & daddy’s do, they dream about their babies long before they come into the world! It might sound a little silly to you but we loved you long before we met you, we just knew you would be perfectly ours.

I want to promise you something baby. Mommy & Daddy will always love you, support you and pray for you. We promise to teach you about the Lord & love one another forever. We have a dream for you too, we hope you will love the Lord & follow His call in your life. Mommy & Daddy are following God’s call & that’s why we’re adopting you. What a blessing you will be in our lives! I have always wanted to be a mommy, you’ve been on my mind for many years & I am anticipating bringing you home. We'll do lots of fun things together, daddy wants to teach you about sports & mommy will teach you about music & art.

With much love & anticipation,

Mommy

Love this book!

A friend of ours got me this book last week. She raved about the author & thought I would like it, she was right! I started it yesterday at the pool & am almost done:) It's one of those books you don't want to finish because it's SO good. Not a chapter went by with out a few tears falling on the pages...I am usually not a crier when I read but this book truly moved me. It was so real & applicable to what John and I are going through right now.

The book is a compilation of adoption stories, all different types. I could relate to the couple's anticipation & desire to grow their families through adoption, some by choice most due to infertility. Regardless, all the stories were about the miracle of adoption & how God's plan for our life isn't always our own. His way is the only way we can experience true joy & this book was a reminder of that truth.

I would recommend this book to anyone! Everyone has been adopted by our Father & everyone will have a friend or family member who has or will have experience with adoption so it's very applicable & just a great quick read.

On a side note, I CAN'T GET OUR BABY OFF MY MIND! :) Just had to share that with you!

Q & A

Today we met with our caseworker for the first time. She said it is usually an hour meeting & we just talk about the basics of the adoption process & she asks us some questions about ourselves and so on...welp, the meeting was 3 hours long! I'm sure most of you are not surprised at all, John & I can be a little chatty. Our caseworker is GREAT, I've read some horror stories online about caseworkers & the home study process but from what I can tell it will be a fun experience & a very comfortable relationship. We felt comfortable with her right away, we feel fortunate to have been matched up with such a kind, compassionate caseworker! It will definitely make the process that much smoother:)

We will be sharing the news that we have started the adoption process with the rest of the world today. We wanted to wait until we met with our caseworker & selected our agency. Now that we have we are absolutely over joyed to let the world know of our plans!

The next step is filling out a lot of paperwork & deciding when we will be starting our classes (we'll take 7 weeks worth), since we will be in ND most of July we might not be able to start until October which is a little ways away but we are confident things will work out perfectly. I think it will be challenging remaining patient but we trust everything will happen according to God's plan & in His time.

Some more exciting news is that Jania & Justin (John's sister) will be having their second baby girl TODAY!!!! We are anxiously awaiting the call! Aunty & Uncle are excited to meet little Olivia:)

Meeting with our caseworker:)

I got our first call from our caseworker Monday, her name is Summer. She sounds super friendly & I've heard really great things about her from another couple who she was assigned to through CFCA.

We will be having our initial meeting at our home this coming Monday. Our caseworker will be going over the process in greater detail with us & get to know us better to see if we will be a "good fit" for the agency. She lives out in our area so we will probably be having most of our meeting here & not the agency in Phoenix. That will be nice! I am really looking forward to this meeting because I feel like it's one step closer to starting the process to bring home our first child:) Just the thought stirs up all kinds of emotions in me! There are so many unknowns like, what color of eyes will he or she have? What race will our sweet baby be? What will our birth mom be like? How long will everything take? They go on & on!! Thankfully, we have complete trust in our Lord to unite us with the baby we're supposed to have & we have faith that He has the perfect plan for this chapter in our lives. Knowing that calms my concerns & pleases my heart.

I will keep ya posted! Please pray for us, as you know there are so many things to consider when taking that first step to growing our family. We love you all & are thankful to have your support!