Saturday, August 28, 2010

Overwhelmed

The last few days as I've been going about my everyday routine I have been extremely overwhelmed with God's grace & beauty. What this has looked like for me is holding myself back from hugging complete strangers because they simply look like they need a friend, wiping back tears that are about to fall from my eyes when I see a child smiling at me, and even wanting to talk to the person sitting next to me at the coffee shop but not starting a conversation because I don't want them to think I'm weird...WHY? Why, do I hold myself back from loving like Jesus, from showing compassion and love to others out of fear of getting rejected or looking odd? Why do I care so much about what others think of me and my actions? I don't have the answers but I know God is doing something incredible in my heart and for this I am grateful and a bit hesitant as to what He's preparing me for. All I know is that our God is faithful and GREAT.

John and I are getting excited to start our adoption classes in October. We have been taking a breather from our paperwork but will be getting it finished within the next couple weeks. I am at peace with where we're at in the "process" right now but can't help but dream of what's to come in our future. My heart is aching to see our child, how blessed we will be when we meet them.